Plans Lyrics

I can't go on forever

Living like a ghost

Permeating the pressure

And poisoning the loam

Fantasizing of failure

To let myself down slow

I need a break in the pattern

A change to spark the soul

I've been down and deserved it

My twenties tore me to shreds

And I'm not saying I'm better

But I try my best

Where do I go

When everything gets dark?

What is the plan

When planning falls apart?

Stuck in the void

I'm screaming for something

Am I reaching out

Or grabbing at nothing?

Settle my head

My nerve is on fire

Hitting the wall

I can't get much higher

Thinking to death

It takes me down slowly

Off with my head

Can't let you control me

Starved out for connection

The future has no friends

A poor attempt at protection

The walls have sealed me in

The longer that I'm in here

The more that I forget

How to grow in the silence

And let the light shine in

I can't keep living in the background

Never bright enough to burn out

Just dull not useless

Can't keep folding under myself

Waiting up to fade away

Did I lose myself

Or not know who I was?

Will I find my center

Or die slightly off?

Toeing the line of self help/self involved

I want to get better

I want to evolve

But where do I go

When everything gets dark?

Nothing to show

Tomorrow's a new start

Cover my eyes

The world is so ugly

Leave me to die

And tell me you love me