i still (insurmountingly sadcore) Lyrics

I still remember the day that it clicked for me

You were using me for all your little games

And how you raped me every day

I still remember the way that you

Talked me into fucking you

After I said no like twenty times 'cause you were on your period

I'm serious when I say

I hope you die alone after spending life in jail and I'd be okay with it

Still blown away with

The way that you got away with everything you did to me

You broke my brain now there's no fixing it

I still think of the way

You said you fucked me just to entertain yourself

And it made me blame myself

I'm still disgusted with

The way you acted disgusted when

I told you I was disgusted with the way it made me feel

When I was covered in blood you skipped the discussion when

I told you that you fucked me when I didn't want you to

And you just said it didn't count

And you just said it didn't count

I still

I still

I still remember the day that you sucked my dick like

Five times in a row and by the third time it just hurt

But if I said no, then you'd be pissed for the rest of the night

You really normalized the way you treated me

It's so fucked up

I was just sixteen when you rewired my brain to have sex be all I think about

And not just that but it's something that I crave now

And it's so inhumane how

I hope this time you dig your grave and fall in it

And the worst part of all of it is

I can't say I hate you

Guess I never got that far

I still remember the day you said you fucked me just to entertain yourself

I hope you blame yourself

'Cause now I have to blame myself

For what you did to me

And I'll always have to blame myself

Or shift the blame to others who just fucked me just for entertainment

Just to entertain themselves