Doesn't Know Why Lyrics

I wish I had a double, one you wouldn't recognize

I could be a total stranger in the right place at the right time

I could befriend you for a second, a casual remark

That would spur your attention, a blink, a spark

I would be there on occasions, not lurking but not on show

Someone seemingly of interest, someone you think you know

And as the time passed and those occasions grew

Acknowledgements became more frequent and anticipation too

Conversations now start; your life into the frame

Your work, your beautiful children, fears and dreams the closer we came

And at home you're all light headed; the start of a double life

And the real me senses your cheerfulness, yet doesn't know why

On the train every morning the stories and the smiles

Like a schoolgirl and a schoolboy in spring, and all the while

Life carries on as normal, the world outside our shell

No stress, no pain, no trauma, we're getting on so well

And now we're having coffees before we catch the train

Laughs and sighs and widening eyes; it's happening again

And then there's that brief moment where romance takes command

The movement in the moment where I reach and hold your hand

We've crossed that bridge of contact, that point of no return

The spark has caught the tinder; the heart has started to burn

At home the light and breezy moments are running dry

The real me senses you're uneasy but doesn't know why

The days are pushing harder, the intertwining of our souls

The joy of being together, spinning far from control

We hold each other tenderly; we fawn we stroke, we kiss

We talk of how life has endlessly brought us both to this

For me it's so delirious, from since I don't know when

I'm there, wonderful, mysterious; I have you back again

The touch, the taste, the warmth of love, the chance, the do and dare

The life that was forgotten is now one that we both share

But at home you're torn asunder; the feeling you're insane

The pleasure and the passion, the pressure and the pain

What was all so simple is now so all awry

The real me senses something but doesn't know why

Months have passed, the dice was cast, the tensions slowly built

Innocence has now long since turned into thoughts of guilt

There was never anything there wanting for a thrilling so haunting

To have so many tears born from such a kiss

How things unfold when love takes hold, how a double life takes its toll

And brings us, brings us both to this

Here in my room full of your perfume I pour the poison wine

Forgive me as I take the step that takes you from me a second time

Do I regret it? no! it was a most wonderful thing

I held you and I love you and its magic made me sing

To be that part of you again could never be a moral crime

To feel your love, to make you laugh, to have you almost mine

And life still carries on; your work, family and friends

Though something beautiful, come and gone; you needed that love again

At home the mundane takes its place, the longing no longer exists

We came and went without a trace, back into the mist

Sometimes at night the memories might take hold and bring a tear

Of you and I in another time in another sphere

The sound of softly crying is heard but only just

The real me doesn't know why and I hope he never does