tendencies Lyrics

I have a tendency to idolise love interests

Break my own heart

Then lose interest

'Spose you learn these patterns in childhood

I have a tendency for straight-face

But my smiles good

I have tendencies to over-give

Or not give enough

Pendulum swinging between that selfless and selfish love

Tendencies to overthink, overanalyse

Washed over by overwhelm

Under surface, an underwhelm of

I wanted this thing but now I'm not so sure

I tend to think in binaries

Like good and bad

Positive and negative

Right and wrong

As though it's that simple

A tendency towards reductiveness to cope with complexity

I tend to see the beauty in things

In shapes of trees, in eyes, clouds, insects

Most things that fly, that swim

I see beauty in most things

I tend to walk down the street and sing

Can't contain myself

Forget that passers-by are listening

I tend to misplace things

Like my keys or favourite pencil

Like poems that I've scribbles on a waiter's

Like my love

But I tend to refind them

In a bag somewhere

In a back pocket

In an act of self-care

See, I have the tendency to look for love outside of me

I mean, understandably

A lot of what we see, our shown

Isn't how to feel whole alone

But, instead tends has us fill up

Imagine holes in our hearts, our stomachs, our eyes

With things and things to buy

Feeling whole for me

Tends to be when I am by the water

Or hug a tree

Yes, a walk in the woods has the tendency to fill me

Feel the aliveness

Or when we talk so honestly and tend to the wounds of our time

Or when you call me drunk and giddy

Pouring more out than you would usually

We have a tendency to hold back

A valiant but impossible attempt to protect

I tend to believe my thoughts

Sit on a high horse

'til I fumble and fall

Return humbles

We all tend to compare ourselves to another

Forgetting, there is no other

With the same combination of parts just like ours

At least, not in this dimension

When I write I tend to doubt it

Tend to want to write something profound in

Each line, but recent times

Have me appreciating the mundane, the everyday

Like how two strangers can look into each other's souls then look away

Perhaps we all appreciate what is a little too late

'only when we sense the end, do we find the courage to speak,

The courage, but still don't know what to stay'

We have the tendency to want to change

And to want change

But, sometimes apathy takes its place

Values don't always align with our actions

I tend to seek truth, but a lie might happen

We care about the planet, but still buy fast fashion

We tend care more than we show

Tend to know more and less than we think we know

We all fear the unknown

Tend to act like the future's predictable

We are all full of contradictions

Tendencies contradicting each other

But with pure intentions

Even if means differ

My self differs around sisters, around each person

I tend to love people, but don't always want to be around them

Introversion means I need time for introspection

I suppose these tendencies change slow

Until you're some other and didn't notice

All I know is

I'd like to move in malleability

Harness the power of vulnerability

Release the need for consistency

Instead, in each moment

Who is it I'd like to be