Diary of a Madman Lyrics

The portrait that I have painted of myself is a caricature

My family must think I've been hit with a terrible curse

The world gets the version of me that's very absurd

The mirror gets another version that's rarely in church

But still I wake up and I thank God for it

A couple seconds, that's the only time I got for Him

Shit been going down hill like I'm long boarding

With this mirror image of myself, it's been a long morning

The time I spend saying some dumb shit, ninety percent

The other ten is me being real and trying to vent

Confess my sins to a priest, see how I can repent

Knowing that I'm just tailgating outside the event

Found love in myself at a young age

But I'm worried that it won't be enough one day

When my friends are all cuffed and I'm just chilling in the cut

With the diary of a madman, writing another page, oh shit

Existential dread, dread, fuck me up

Stop messing with my head, head - damn

Oh yeah, this life is one and done

Wish that I could buy some time

Nah, that watch is one of one

I reverse engineered it from the jump in this bitch

Say whatever it takes to make it thump in this bitch

Built my personality around what bumps in this bitch

That's the type of shit that make you want to jump off a bridge

Who am I, every word is do or die

Every new attempt to gain more attention is suicide

Am I real, am I fake, is it dope, you decide

Shit is draining, but it still beats wearing a suit and tie forever

Twenty six, single life

Flash forward to the old man sitting at bingo night

On his phone just refreshing to see if he get those likes

On that new freestyle he posted at 8:00pm

Pray to mother Mary that I find a nice mommy with a

Perky set of tits who thinks differently than all them bitches

That's worth more to me than all them riches

That the world offers and I'll never try to bargain with him

But I've learned that they're few and far between

The perfect life they try to sell you ain't what it seems

And I can't believe you fell for that like what the fuck you mean

I'm pissed that Eric's even in the term American Dream

Just my thoughts, but I'm still all good

A little breakdown, let me check up under the hood

If I could go back and change, I don't think that I would

It's kind of fucked, but sometimes I just feel misunderstood

Just my thoughts, but I'm still all good

A little breakdown, let me check up under the hood

If I could go back and change, I don't think that I would

It's kind of fucked, but sometimes I just feel misunderstood