Feb19th. Lyrics

Ever feel that fucken sense of lonliness like no one at yo side

Ive been searching for myself but still cant seem to find the light

Im smokin those cigarettes to fill my lungs but nothing make it right

Im fuckin up too many times i think ive had it in this life

I could drink my whole bottle but fuck i still feel the same

Dosent change a thing if i consume ill forever be stuck with this pain

Im thinkin fuck this depression weighin up on my shoulder

It all comes to quick and i cant deal with shit so best to freeze my heart colder

I steady chase for that happiness

But i cant seem to reach it

This fucken shade still blockin my path

They laugh cause they the ones breathing

Ya see my sun never rose and im still motherfucking bleeding

Drag me to the fucken trash and leave my body there deleted

Keep your head up motherfucker

Yes ive heard it all befo

I could smile with this fucken face

You wouldnt even know that

I been diggin myself this hole thatll just not stop

Im too far down amongst the darkness i cannot see out the top

Im sick of this planet

Its still fuck the world

Ill never understand it

Pain and death will go unnoticed

Thoughts of picking up tha hatchet

If i took my life i wonder how many people will care

Or will they not and let me rot i guess thats 1 thing i fear

Toughen up little bitch

Why you crying fo

Maybe cause you left me broken

Aint no lying hoe

Im just doing what i can to keep survivng

Slowly dying in my mind

Im fucking done with all this motherfucking trying bitch

Every time I close my eyes I feel my breath getting thin

I'm scared to die alone where the fuck do I begin

I try to find some peace in my mind, but the fear keeps creeping in Death's knocking at my door and I don't know if I'm ready to let him in

I see my soul passing on and it makes me feel lost I wonder where I'll be and what the afterlife has at cost

I'm holding onto memories trying not to let them fade But the thought of leaving everything behind it's got me Feeling so dismayed