Lost Among the Stars Lyrics

I been drifting and forever wishing

I wasn't thinking of another picture

I hope I never missed a mark

I hope that I can love and fix my broken heart

I think my state is stagnant

I think the pain will come back if I relax

Or maybe that is just the way I practiced

Maybe making music was the way to patch it

I took a leap and I left the planet

Losing gravity and fencing madness

Testing waters without a caution

I'm gonna drown in sorrow if I falter

Fall down the rabbit hole

Spiral down and miss the whole of my youth

I'm going through it, a big transition

I got to stay committed lest I meet Charybdis

Fall into that abyss and miss my happiness

What trap is this?

Am I made to live?

Do I make it big?

Why do I think of the illest things?

I'm not sure if that's a good thing

I've never hit anything more extreme than these mood swings

I've never bit anything off more than I could chew

I've been running and always trying to pull a stunt

I can only hope I make it farther every time I jump

I been distant and reminiscing

Past relationships have got me tripping

I see her face every day

And she's the good one I was with

How could she ever fade away?

Comparison is how I hurt myself

A seraphim of judgment, that's a war with hell

Mind over matter, anxiety, a prison, a cell

I'm kept cuffed to stuff I fucked with

Reminded of all the people I'm done with

Every night the compilation gets replayed

Every time the combination is expressly laid

The memories cut me like a deadly blade

My emotional debts are getting well repaid

Even then, with all depression, I haven't shed a tear

Except for the loss of a love I have most revered

And yet fate seems laid out in front of me

I can't see a day where my two deaths

Aren't there to comfort me

The demons are winning

Demons are winning

I cross my heart

Start my car

And they're still pursuing

I'm tired of running

Tired of running

Patience is something

Tired of hunting

Tired of struggling

Loving for nothing

I hope it's for someone

And not where I come from

Tired of running

Dying of nothing

Feel like it's something

Daylight is tougher

Night is a cover

Providing me warmth

At least there are stars that I can shoot for

I pray that I can recover

And not become lost among them

Ain't that something

I'm tired of running