Letter to Myself Lyrics

I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to save me

(DVUS Texas nigga)

This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy

(C4)

I need somebody to heal

Somebody to know

(Yuh)

Somebody to have

Somebody to hold

(Okay)

It's easy to say

(Let's go)

But it's never the same

I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain

Now the day bleeds

Into nightfall

And you're not here

To get me through it all

I let my guard down

And then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

I wrote this letter to myself to have some closure from you

Gimmie some time I'll be content, I did what I'm posed to do

I mean I loved you to the max, I had yo back

When shit got tough

Shit I gave you all I had but I guess I wasn't enough

But shit I miss you, I wanna hold u tight and kiss yo face

Won't try replacing you cuz any other bitch feel out of place

I need to heal, I'm anti social anyway, I'm out the way

This shit don't sit right, I don't understand just why you alked away

But I won't ask for explanations, if you wanted you would give them

Or you do, you just don't know how so it might not be that simple

I give the benefit of doubt to you, my rule that's always written

And I'm stuck on moving on but deep inside wish we rekindled

I lost somebody that I love but they ain't dead man this shit crazy

And I don't want you hurtin to but if you ain't it's cos you hate me

And I don't mean to be off loafing in the past my feeling make me

So you can call it what you want but girl you was deadass my baby

Love the shit out of you crazy, shit it's crazy how you up and left

I thought you was my lady, But now it feel as if you hate me

Am I exaggerating maybe, but don't blame me, I ain't crazy

Shit I gave you all I had a cold shoulders what you gave me back

You told me you wanna go

I watch walk out the door

Feel like we been here before

Ima let you go but I want you to know

If I could do it again, I wouldn't wanna be friends

Cos all this pain that I been through, I don't want it again

And everything that I gave you, down the drain where it went

But right now im finna thank you, cos you making me win

I'm workin harder than ever, I ain't feelin no pressure

I let go of the stress of tryna keep us together

You say this what you wanted and I'll be damn if I'm beggin

You had a man who was down for you who would give you whatever

But it is what it is

I guess it is what it is

I drown my feeling wit drink

Sometimes I don't wanna think

I can't help but to see your mother fuckin face when I blink

I can't get over this shit I feel like something is missing

I won't call you again, it's not like you're gonna listen

I'm sad I've fallen again, really thought this time was different

No I don't wanna be friends, I am inlove don't you get it ?

Ain't heard yo voice in a minute

My camera roll got me trippin

My bed feels bigger now that it ain't got the both of us in it

I was the man that you needed and the idea you wanted

You was the girl of my dreams still can't believe we departed

And from the day this shit started and from the rate that we bonded

Who woulda knew I'd end up empty handed and broken hearted it hurts