i wanna go home Lyrics

Mother is watching an old time movie

while Father's asleep on the couch

And Sister is still on the phone with her friends

pacing outside of the house

And I'm in the hallway, watching it happen

Feeling a strange dissociative feeling

Watching myself as I watch them and reach out to touch

I love them so much

I, I want to go home

I want to live life in familiar patterns I already know

I want to be held by my mother and told that I am not alone

I want to go home, let me go home

Our neighbors come over with presents and whiskey and Father pulls out the guitar

And Sister sneaks off with her friends to enjoy all the drinks that they stole from the bar

And I'm in the kitchen, watching it happen

Somehow it feels like my job to remember

All of us here together doing alright

For a moment in time

And I, I want to go home

I want to live life in familiar patterns I already know

I want to be held by my mother and told that I am not alone

I want to go home, let me go home

Mother's adjusting her hair for the camera

while Father is teaching on Zoom

and Sister is telling them both not to worry, we'll all be together so soon

And I'm on the screen, my face in the window

Watching the world that I took for granted

If you let me survive, I promise I won't disappear

No I'll be right here

And I, I want to go home

I want to live life in familiar patterns I already know

I want to be held by my mother and told that I am not alone

I want to go home

I want to go home

I want to go home