Closet Lyrics

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm hating that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

14-years-old

When he first found out

That the pain inside of his brain wasn't the same as everybody else's around

Cause he was always really into the girls in his grade

But now he was catching feelings for the boy with the fade

And it made him insane

And it drove him to a point in his pain

Where he was condemned to live his existence in vain (Vayne)

So he became obsessed

And like a coke getting squished

Proving to people that he was straight, was making him so depressed (soda pressed)

Cause he was always the kid

That everybody else was wishing they was with

And it made him sick

To his stomach that he fell for a guy

He didn't know he was bi

It didn't matter, his whole life was lie

So now all of his focus went to proving to people

That he loved women and only women and that being gay would be evil

Pretending that he loved anything other than guys

He was trynna survive

Cause he hated the habit

Everything he ever feared, he would claim was a faggot

But the more that he steered

From the path of the queer

His heart, he wanted to stab it

The homophobia would curse through his body

At his school, in his verse or the lobby

Made it his hobby not to be gay

Then everything that he hates he became

Picked up the bullets of blame, and loaded his gun

Then he steadied for aim, pointed at somebody's son

The second of his mums

He was just hoping that life was a game

And he could just rez and be changed

What a shame

His own life, he was trying to claim

Daang

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm hating that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm hating that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

I'll be staying in my closet

On the sixteenth anniversary of his birth he

Cried alone in his room begging god for some mercy

Cause he didn't feel worthy

Of the life that he led

Or the friends that he had

So he unmade his bed

And wrapped his sheet around his neck

He was making a noose

Something to hang himself by

Anything he could use

He just needed to die

He tied it up to a hook

In the roof

And he looked

At the life that he lived

And he cried like a kid

He just needed to go

Octobox of his life, Witching Hour, Red-Zone

Then the sheet to the hook, he attached

As he stood on his chair, he just laughed

Looked back at the plaque on his drawer

Looked forward to the door

And imagined his corps on the floor

And the horror of his mum as she talked to the lord

He took a deep breath as he glanced at the figure

Staring at him from the middle of the mirror

Clarity came now, finally he sees clearer

Then one last tear dribbled right from his eye

As he looked to the sky

With a smile that was wry

And the note that he wrote would just lie

On the left of his desk and declared whereby

He was happy to die

Then he kicked out the chair and he whispered goodbye

Fly high little guy

And with this got your wish cause you are no longer bi

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm hating that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm hating that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

I'll be staying in my closet

This song isn't a story just about some guy

This is the tale and the hardship of my life

And everyday, I am thankful that I did not die

So if you're brain is the same and confused

Don't be afraid, you got your mate, you will prove

That the person you are, is so perfect in truth

Cause identity isn't something you should be struggling through

You just gotta love yourself the same way that I do

Since I

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm loving that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm loving that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm loving that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

I discovered I was bi as shit

And I'm loving that I feel like this

All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick

So tonight

I'll be coming out my closet