SELF DRSTRUCTION Lyrics

I don't want anymore pain

Or imma end this myself

I wanted to end all of me

Cuz I didn't have no help

I was dying on my seat

Ready to see her in hell

But Jesus came to rescue me

While I was walking by myself

Internally dead

My intentions were not to break but I internally did

My progression started to fade eventually I was lead

To suicide in my head emotionally I was wrecked

Cuz I drifted away from all incoming tracks a head

I spun out and wasn't afraid cuz I was glad I did

Purposely flipped to split my brain from half to ten

The mask again was worn to pretend like I wasn't dead

People told me I needed rest looked like I haven't slept

Yes I did two to three hours back to the walking dead

I'm supposed to be Bless but I chose taking my life instead

Cuz no matter what I knew I couldn't have her again

I was truly depressed because I couldn't defend

The love I had for her so I decided just to end

This endless suffering but little did I know I would've been

More empty than I've ever been

Bro I have never been so unhesitant

I don't want anymore pain

Or imma end this myself

I wanted to end all of me

Cuz I didn't have no help

I was dying on my seat

Ready to see her in hell

But Jesus came to rescue me

While I was walking by myself

Body is strapped up

Copy lets self destruct

On three we'll detonate

Then after let's gas it up

On me I strapped up

Boomings to self deduct

A life I felt was waisted this disaster was enough

To blow my temple up

And when I blew the explosion left nothing to construct

There was no such thing as love

And no such thing as trust

More empty than a cave with more eco's than my plugs

And one day a memory came into my head

It was a sentence saying come I will give you rest

And I immediately knew who was feeding me bread

It was the Holy Spirit of God come ¿again

Cuz I thought there was nothing else in this vent

And He said my son

I have never left

Come to me Live with me

I will resurrect

You from the dead

So you can live once again

So now I live for Him

I don't want anymore pain

Or imma end this myself

I wanted to end all of me

Cuz I didn't have no help

I was dying on my seat

Ready to see her in hell

But Jesus came to rescue me

While I was walking by myself