mother's regret Lyrics

Sitting at the altar of my mother's dresser, that pearl noose tightening on me

Lips are stained red with the taste of her regret, I'm something that she doesn't wanna see

This mirror isn't what I expected, picking and choosing what to reflect

The rest of my life seems to be set, all doused in the feeling of my mother's regret

And I can't blame her for her reluctance, Lord knows I'm not what she expected

And I probably could've been better

Yeah, I probably could've been better

Running through the hallway of my father's safe place, the walls are closing on me

The lights all flicker with his irritation, and every misstep tells him that I'm weak

This home isn't what I expected, picking and choosing what to accept

The rest of my life seems to be set, running from the feeling of my father's regret

And I can't blame him for his lost temper, Lord knows I'm not what he expected

And I probably could've been better

Yeah, I probably could've been better

And I'm nine of ten in a family with an aversion to the odd one out

And I have spent this whole damn life, disappointing you

And looking for something you'd deem, big enough to cry about

Wasting too much of all our time just to fail at that part too

And I probably could've been better

Yeah, I probably could've been better

I probably could've been better

Yeah, I probably could've been better

Better, better, better, better, better, better, better

Better, better, better, better, better, better, better

Better, better, better

I probably could've been better