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I was living too close to the grave

Amount of vices that I had was too close to my age

And the cover they judged me by was too close to my page

Way too close to my pain

Way too close to explain

Look

Still I must confide

Tried to hide

Almost died inside of labia

I bet that sound crazy uh

I gotta be honest bout my life and my behavior

Call out what He saved me from

Fell in lust with sugar

And that cake you couldn't take me from

I would always get that heavy beat inside my atrium

Every time my iris got excited by my area

Sacrificed my flesh unto the devil

And he ate me up

What Elohim saved me from

Look

I was back inside the party

With my weed in my bag

I'd roll up pain and insecurity

And breathe in my past

Exhale the trauma and the drama

Tried to leave it like that

Tried to get off my train of thought

But it'd come steaming right back

I tried to find a little shawty with a body

Thinking maybe she could solve me

But I always ended up saying I'm sorry

What Bacardi couldn't fluidly fix

I had to lucidly ditch

I got with Lucy

Grabbed the goosey

And dipped

I had to flee

Know my conscience wasn't green

But my flesh it intervened

Made decision and I leaned wit it, rocked wit it

Fiends

Never found me on my knees

For the reason I should be

Was so high I couldn't

Had to talk wit Him

Please let me down

I'm a dog

Could You please let me out

I am lost

Could You please help me now

Could You please help me

He said I gotta be something different

He said I gotta be something different

Gotta be

Different

Said I gotta be

He said I gotta be something different

He said I gotta be something different

Gotta be

Different

Gotta be

Different

He said I had to change

It was strange at first

I noticed difference in my words

In my slang at first

And then I learned power of speech

And how language hurts

A couple people that I killed

In my layman's terms

Was livin' dangerous

Over Sinplification

Never thought it was deep

Never would complicate it

Never thought it was me

Community mixed with union

Communion is where we meet

But I was focused on bread

I never saw it as we

I'd never watch what I eat

I'd never protect my plate

And the plaintiff would see me feast

And then I would be accused

Of the food that I would consume

Under bloody moons in my tomb

In my room

When I had the meal I chose to swoon to my doom that day

It's all consumption

Really it's all for nothing

Really it's all for glory

For vanity

And for frontin

Really I thought they wouldn't abandon me if I'm stuntin'

Really it's all just runnin'

Look

I had to face the facts

I had to dive into myself

I had to take it back

And find the reasons why my coronary made of wax

I had to figure out the mold that I was made of back

When I was made in tact

I got my favor back

I got that fire on my tongues

That was some major acts

He wrote my verses in His stripes

Now that's a paper back

I had to pay Him back

I had to

He said I gotta be something different

He said I gotta be something different

Gotta be

Different

Said I gotta be

He said I gotta be something different

He said I gotta be something different

Gotta be

Different

Gotta be