Doors Closed Lyrics

When them doors close

There ain't nobody there to save you now

I been screaming someone let me out

Contemplating why I'm filled with doubt

Lost my confidence I don't know how

Building my self like a building

What's high enough for the ceiling?

Do I want to make the millions?

Just the thought of that I'm soaking in my privilege

For example let me give you a good instance

My Momma grew up with no food up in her fridges

How?

How?

What's my life come to?

I don't know how

How?

I been oh so spoiled I'm trying to touch the ground

Ground

I'm going to my roots and think bout the life I lived

Lots of sacrifice my parents made for all they kids

My past is filled with all regret but is it is what it is

Who there?

Who there?

I know you there

You there

But I pushed you both away so I could

Inhale inhale

Smoked medical grade I know I didn't have permission

We lived in Texas so I didn't have prescription

It wasn't good it was just halting my ambition

Bad mental health doesn't mix good with an addiction

I got some stories to tell

That I know well

If kept on living that lifestyle I'd go to hell

Either that or I'd be on the run and prolly go to jail

If I didn't quit the drugs I'd never learn to love myself

When them doors close

There ain't nobody there to save you now

I been screaming someone let me out

Contemplating why I'm filled with doubt

Lost my confidence I don't know how

I'm thinking how could I give love like they did for me?

Sitting here and questioning

Bout my life and how can I improve?

Become a better man

My father said one day I really hope that you would understand

The things that I was doing was so you could have a better chance

At living life

With better opportunities

My father didn't grow up with a loving community

I really wasn't the best kid

Did a lot

And I be wishing that some things I did

Was turned into did not

So many sacrifices that were made I didn't put to thought

So many times I pushed them away knowing they was all I got

I been patiently, patiently waiting

For my time to come so I been really thinking

How can I spread the love to world like they did for me?

So many times I broke they trust but kept loyalty

I wasted so much of their time and it wasn't cheap

I been really tryna change I hope that you can see