CHOOSE ME / REGRETS PART 2 Lyrics

I know its unfair the way that everything goes

But you always been there for the highs and the lows

And I'll always be there for you, when nobody knows

Everybody chose up, but its you that I chose

So I hope you choose me

If its been too late, was it my mistake

Was it all the bullshit that I used to say

Was it everything else that I was trying to change

Did it all for you, So I hope you choose me

Yeah, I been tryna find a middle ground

But all the shit inside, I'm feeling like a middle child

Disrespected by the guilt, bullied down by regret

I wish I never let myself get fucking stuck in my head

I always knew I was toxic, I told my friends I was not shit

For all the trauma that haunted, I just kept adding more nonsense

I was self sabotaging and manifesting my problems

I was fucking up so much I could invest in some condoms

Keep me safe from my bullshit, keep my feelings in check

Cuz I was hiding them so long from you I thought they were dead

But every time I fucking see you they would rise from the crypt

Them circumstances never ever let them amount to shit

I was so used to that, it became a part of me

But never having hope for love that shit just got so hard on me

And when you said you felt the same, I had to be like pardon me

That shit just never happens, everything just felt so far to me

Now I got feelings I ain't never fucking felt before

Take a couple days a couple weeks and then I fell some more

Then I start to fuck it up like right outside of heavens door

I couldn't keep my shit contained, emotionally I'm insecure

But I been learning and growing and therapy has been showing

How my mistakes were connected to deeper shit that's encoded

Right inside of my heart, I always knew it was broken

But the pieces were so shattered and I never could notice

But hindsight is 20/20

They say that life's a bitch, but honestly she's kind of funny

Everything I wanted I'm the reason that it's running

Couldn't take the pain of hurting you that's why I'm cutting

But I missing all the days that you would sleep at my place

All the times I was distracted memorizing your face

Looking back and looking up you give me reasons to pray

Even if we not together can we still be okay

I know its unfair the way that everything goes

But you always been there for the highs and the lows

And I'll always be there for you, when nobody knows

Everybody chose up, but its you that I chose

So I hope you choose me

If its been too late, was it my mistake

Was it all the bullshit that I used to say

Was it everything else that I was trying to change

Did it all for you, So I hope you choose me

Or choose somebody better

Somebody that can keep they shit together

Somebody that won't have you under pressure

But if I'm still the guy for you I promise Imma keep it all together

Yeah, all them nights I stayed awake hoping that we could conversate

I'd like to kindly take them back, I never got the time of day

Used to think I was a devil but I couldn't advocate

Now I'm seeing life without you took a bit to acclimate

I know you tired of hearing sorry after wilding out

All those regrets don't mean a thing is what I'm finding out

I still be thinking maybe later if the timing's out

But I don't see you spinning back to me this ain't no roundabout

I got a problem thinking that I don't deserve shit

22 years ain't a day I thought was worth it

Idolized you I really saw you being perfect

Just because I got a little deeper than the surface

I won't hold you up and waste your motherfucking time

Even though I'm still in love with you, you probably won't be mine

That's why I bother with these hoes, I don't even have to try

Giving pieces of my penis just to get some peace of mind

I can't feel my face when I'm with you

But I love it, but I love it, oh

I can't feel my face when I'm with you

But I love it, but I love it, oh

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