honest Lyrics

If I'm honest with myself

About what I was feeling

About what I was reeling from

Could you even see it?

Was there something to be noticed?

What good would it do for me

To resurface memories

To think about all the times I've come undone?

Woah, woah

I'm sick of writing sad songs

Sick of thinking "what's wrong"

Sick of shaking hands and bad thoughts

Sick of carrying boulders

Sick of thinking "hold her"

Sick of sobbing into pillows and shoulders

If I'm honest with myself

If you were honest with yourself

Would you even recognize

The image you hide behind

What reality feels like versus the show you know?

Where did you go wrong?

Could you point it out?

Trace it back to when they first started

To when it got loud

Could you understand

What it meant to be human?

To try and put aside the lies, the masks to try to face them

There's screaming inside your head

You try to null it out instead

Spiraling deeper into distractions that never leave your bed

Woah, woah

You're sick of hearing sad songs

Sick of crying "what's wrong"

Sick of shaking hands, and bad thoughts

Sick of laying frozen

of crying "no one knows it"

Sick of only finding peace in your headphones

If you're honest with yourself

If I'm honest with myself

What did I lose

And what did I gain

What was joy

And what was pain

I think I forgot myself

Even my name

I think I forgot myself

I'm sick of writing sad songs

Sick of thinking "what's wrong"

Sick of shaking hands and bad thoughts

Sick of carrying boulders

Sick of thinking "hold her"

Sick of sobbing into pillows and shoulders

I'm sick of singing sad songs

Sick of knowing what's wrong

Sick of doing nothing to turn it around

Sick of laying in my bed

Sick of voices in my head

Sick of living when everything around me feels dead

If I'm honest with myself