Sex Song Lyrics

It's so beautiful outside

With your tiny hands wrapped peacefully in mine

We're gonna lay on the bed

You're gonna look into my eyes

And you will see me look ahead

And I'll say

No no no, I'm not ready to face-time

If I'm being honest your body makes me hate mine

The outside is hot to the dismay of the inside

I don't like how it looks but I guess that it tastes fine

I'm curled up like a child on the ground

Under the bed and I hope to not be found

By your "how"s

You will not get away with this one

It wants what it wants

I can't help it, I'm not in control

So just let it go

Place your hands on the side of my face

They're not yet warm enough to be tied up in shame

Fill your ears with my final decree

Soon enough you'll finally see

It's not so bad

If you just close your eyes and hold your breath

Embrace yourself for me

To plunge your self between

This mound of human meat

Oh, watch me swerve and watch me spin

I'll keep you nice and neat

All wrapped inside of me and make you go

Ow ow ow ow ow,

Ow ow ow ow ow, oh

Though I try to be kind

There is something deep inside

Telling me it's not what it seems

Rotten for a memory but ripe for today

My heart is torn at it's seam

And at me it screams

What if I was wrong

What if this is a mistake

What have I gotten myself into

I've lost my way and will never come back again

And if this is a mistake then show me a sign

Dear god, show me a sign

Give me light

Give me strength

Give me reason

Give me the strength to say no and mean it

But all those are thoughts

The meanings to which I've forgotten

And when I woke from my heavenly sleep

It appeared this was all just a dream

Of a lover you were

Trapped inside of the records that I helped to burn

Spare the sorrow of beggars you meet on your journey

To heaven with roses and bones

With your grandmothers makeup and dress

In my own living room I will dance to the music we played

Trapped inside of the records that I helped you break

And the sounds you let out when I looked at your face

Julia, how you left me alone

Has my absence been cause of relief

Did my tongue paint your wisdom to flee

Julia, how I loved to hold you so near in a struggle to breathe

And cast all my frustrations beneath all the sheets

In the bedroom where we used to sleep

Did you keep all the memories we made

Or surrender your soul to the pain I designed just for you

With the pity of god and his heavenly grace

Locked inside of your cigarette, quietly laced

Julia, I'm still here if you please

I wasn't strong

My emotions were physical

My hand on your neck was purely subliminal

I wasn't brave

Let my anger swallow me

Sucked you into it, now your memory will follow me