anxious Lyrics

I'm high strung and I'm anxious

Can't wait till I'm famous

Why would my words matter, it's not like people will play this

So I guess it's back to basics

This is ground zero

Trap myself inside of comics cause this world don't have a hero

Yes, I'm high, strong and I'm anxious

Cause this world is always changing

I find myself trapped in situations that I'm placed in

I'm always late to trends, I never keep my friends

Even though I know how to swim I always drown in the deep end

I never thought I'd get this far

I never thought I'd live this long

I never thought I'd be my dad

I never thought I'd be my mom

Never thought I'd have people say that they love my music

Never thought I'd get over the kids that called me stupid

I never thought I'd save a life

Off of all this shit I sit and write

When life's a mess and I'm depressed

And suicide becomes the best advice I give myself

Fuck my health, I do not matter

Lordy, lordy, send a prayer

I can't climb up heaven's ladder

I never thought I'd have to help bury one of my friends

My sanity's getting stretched and the light's beginning to dim

There's lines I know I can't cross but they're becoming so thin

That when I finally sit and think the room starts to spin

There's so many voices

There's so many choices

There's so many places

There's so many faces

That when I kill myself in an instant, they ain't looking so dangerous

But I can't do that yet you see, I'm so scared of dying nameless

That's when I pick up this stainless and I start counting them bullets

I cock back, it's empty, so I begin to reload it

Now I'm losing my focus

As the clip moving in motion

Put it up to my temple, click, click, and then I unload it

Then I wake up, it's bright

There's a dude with a beard

Who said I wasted my life

Cause I was living through fear

I ain't serving him right

So now I'm paying the price

I'm either burning or reborn just to relive this life

In a childhood like mine with no say or control

You start to grow hostile bout this life that you think that you're owed

So I micromanage everything

I dot my I's and cross my T's

I have to cause I'm a man

Or at least that's what I'm supposed to be

I never thought I'd get this far I never thought I'd live this long

I never thought my life would be placed Inside of all of these songs

I never wanted to breathe or wanted to live

I didn't ask to exist

I didn't ask for this shit

I'm high strung and I'm anxious

Can't wait till I'm famous

Why would my words matter, it's not like people will play this

So I guess it's back to basics

This is ground zero

Trap myself inside of comics cause this world don't have a hero

Yes, I'm high, strong and I'm anxious

Cause this world is always changing

I find myself trapped in situations that I'm placed in

I'm always late to trends, I never keep my friends

Even though I know how to swim I always drown in the deep end