My Real Name is Byron Lyrics

I don't know who I've become but everybody seems to love him

He ain't like the dude I know with a busted nose and bleeding knuckles

Homie moving with a purpose

Homie got a dream a hustle

Homie tried to dig a ditch and bury all my deepest struggles

I give him an A for effort

But he ain't know no better

That trauma rose up from the dirt and made shit worse

Growing up I knew my family had a curse

And homie gave me hope that somehow it could be reversed

I got to conquer these demons first

Because now I know what really made me tough

Why I was selling fentanyl to stack my paper up

Why every time I wasn't writing or performing

Being dormant

I was fighting with my thoughts

It was torment

My name is Byron Horton

A survivor at all costs

Them thoughts of murder came from what I seen and who I lost

That fear of going broke is cause I know my family fought

Poverty was man made

Ignorance was taught

Lusting because my cousin touched me early on

Commitment conflicted cause my daddy did me wrong

Up and left

Momma did her best

She didn't communicate because

You can't when you're that stressed

Or maybe nobody taught her and therefore she couldn't teach

Maybe that's why she cussed me out or I'd just get my ass beat

Compassion is a stranger

Affection is unknown

That's why when wifey wants to talk

I got to check my tone

The reason why I shut down

I don't know how to feel

Hoping I never prank out

Somebody might get killed

This image I'm upholding is heroic but unreal

Keep running from my truth then how I ever plan to heal

Demolish then rebuild

You don't have to sell your soul

To lose it

Said I was trapping for some dollars to invest in music

That wasn't true

It was partially fueled by influence

I just adjusted to my ghetto and what they was doing

Spend 20 years around the plug and eventually you'll use it

I plugged my thugs with the drugs a few of them used it

Broke my heart they was fiending instead of stinging

And now I'm realizing all the damage I was wreaking

I was talking to my therapist and shit

And I was

Trying to figure out why I felt so lonely

With all of these fans and supporters

People looking up to me and I realized

You know when I made the alias Skypp

When I made the person y'all know as Skypp

I abandoned Byron

Which is who I was for the first 13 or 14 years of my life

You know what I mean

It was a lot of shit Byron didn't get to experience

Byron didn't get to mature from

So in a sense Byron is still that thirteen or fourteen year old kid

Just abandoned and lonely you know what I mean so

I had to address that shit

And when I did I thought Byron was the bad guy

Because he was on some street shit

But really he had the same goal as Skypp

Which was making it out the struggle

You know what I mean so

My only job really was to find that balance and

Bring Byron up to speed with what Skypp had going on

And just try to blend that shit together and make it work for me man

So to everybody I love everybody I hurt

Sorry for my trauma