Coming Clean Lyrics

I miss my family and friends that got left behind

I have the darkest thoughts inside 'cause really I don't wanna die

Yeah it's a mirror of my fear and I can't really lie

About the turmoil that I always tend to feel inside

I never catch a break from all the things that weigh me down

Negative thoughts coming at me, never stopping now

It wasn't always this way, but I'll keep pushing forward anyhow

So I think back to a time when I was young and my mind was healthy

Never could I see that happiness was a currency that made me wealthy

I always reminisce of the days that won't come

What's ahead of me is not the free joy that I came from

It's difficult tryna get ahead while you're falling backwards

There's not a thing I won't do for a day filled with laughter

I wanna slow down, but man, time keeps going faster

I'd rather live right now than pretend there's something after

If there was a time when I didn't have to align

My thoughts with my body, spirit, and mind

It's too far gone now, there's no chance to rewind

No possibility of going back to find a sign

That this is not forever

Tell me that there's a different forecast for the weather

I can't go on like this not feeling any better

These times have been getting harder than ever

Harder than ever, yuh

I wanna go back to where I came from

Hometown fever got me feelin' like I'm still too young

Life got me feelin' so worn out and high strung

Life got me breathin' like I don't know how to use my lungs

Fish out of water, I always felt this way

Never made too many friends 'cause I'm in my head all day

Keep me in your thoughts or prayers; believe or not, that's okay

I have faith that I will live my fullest life if I don't stray

From all the things that I've been working to, all these dreams gon' get me through

'Cause nothing really matters if I do not commit to

Making a better version of me and a better world for you

Yeah, I know it's not that easy to avoid giving into

The negative feelings and the voice inside my head

I'm stuck another day choosing between myself or making bread

Not sure how much more I can take life on by the head

Keep going on while remembering the memories instead

So I think back to a time when everything was fine

Wake up every day lookin' at the sunshine

That's all I want now, keep everything in line

But I still lie to myself all the time

It's difficult tryna get ahead while you're falling backwards

There's not a thing I won't do for a day filled with laughter

I wanna slow down, but man, time keeps going faster

I'd rather live right now than pretend there's something after