Outside My Door Lyrics

What is normal

What is real and What is not

Looking paranormal

The way I see the things I got

They said I'm immoral

Cause I don't see the world the same

But Once you go beneath the fluff

You realize it's all a game

And my brain be on playin tricks on me

Its got a fix on me, how everything just

Seem delayed, the chemicals just mix in me

That serotonin, dopemine

Epinephrine, cortisol

Go together like a cocktail

Take a sip, your sure to fall

Release endorphins on the daily

And some habits are habitual

That includes the bad

And so I battle bout my rituals

Emotions like a roller coaster

Up and down and go in loops

Twist and turn in all directions

Idk what more to do

Reading books and podcasts

Journaling and therapy

I don't take no meds

But I just might cause shit is scaring me

Days I think of quitting

Got my parents all concerned

So I gotta get a hold of this

Before it takes a turn

Sometimes I don't need no help

Sometimes I can't see myself

Feels like I can't go outside

I'm too afraid leave

It's getting hard to see the light, and I know

I don't think they get my pain

At times I just feel ashamed

This world is a crazy place

That's getting hard for me

It's getting hard to sleep at night, and I know

Stigma

It's more like an enigma

It's something of a paradox if you can

Paint a picture

Its seaming from your trauma

And it's started from a trigger

And it serves you as a sign like a sigma

That they label like a signa

I get by with my charisma

But inside I'm an imposter

Hiding one side from world

Like I'm the phantom of my opera

Family telling me that's life

So when I listen to Sinatra

I reflect on how it changed

From the time I was a toddler

Attached to all my old stories

Hard to try to re write

Adding all the stresses of this generation

Breed fright

Media, mass and social

Ways you can attach are global

Matrix is alive and well

But it can have you going postal

Levels got you feeling crazy

Doctors wanna diagnose you

Dis- order, dis-ease

Dis is how they get to know you

Bi-polar, de-pressed, obsessive

Paranoia

Schitzo, anxious

Wishing it could all be over

Sometimes I don't need no help

Sometimes I can't see myself

Feels like I can't go outside

I'm too afraid leave

It's getting hard to see the light, and I know

I don't think they get my pain

At times I just feel ashamed

This world is a crazy place

That's getting hard for me

It's getting hard to sleep at night, and I know