Pretend Lyrics

Lately I've been trying find a reason why

Still so young but feel like I've been wasting time

So I had to figure out where I've been wrong

Pointless conversations

Get lost up in translations

Gone through shit that would make a grown man cry

But I'm way too numb and I just don't know why

So I had to hold it back Instead of feeling all alone

Been through realizations

Thru trials and tribulations

Man fuck all this shit I don't need it

Man fuck all this shit I don't need it

The pain of knowing your friends don't fuck with you truly's a horrible feeling

I opened my eyes in the morning just hoping that it was a mare I was dreaming

This shit got me feeling like fleeing wanting to stay but I don't have a reason

I feel like I'm losing myself

I blame it on my mental health

I'm crushing this bud put it all in the zoobie it's putting the feelings in stealth

But I do not need no help

My feelings all up on a shelf

Everyday I wake up and look in the mirror I don't even see myself

I'm losing control like I'm Russ

At this point I do not give a fuck

And I'm building these walls all around me

They're keep me safe like I'm playing on Rust

I been coping got nothing to say

What I'm feelings not what I display

But I swear that I almost broke down

When she told me it doesn't have to end this way

And I didn't even wanna do this

But she always saying I'm confusing

But I had a choice between you and myself

And I guess you found out what I'm choosing

They say Wiked you're moving too ruthless

Know it all but I act like I'm clueless

And I know that I'm saying too much its okay

She don't even listen to my music

Lately I've been trying to find a reason why

Still so young but feel like I've been wasting time

So I had to figure out where I've been wrong

Pointless conversations

Get lost up in translations

Gone through shit that woulda make a grown man cry

But I'm way too numb and I just don't know why

So I had to hold it back Instead of feeling all alone

Been through realizations

Thru trials and tribulations

You know I've been rolling

Steady I been coping

I been go through so much that I'm no longer hoping

At this point I'm toking until the point I'm choking

And all because I hate this shit and feel my time was stolen

Thinking bout the shit that I should not have said

I told her that we could not even be friends

Said that you would be with me until the end

You're a fucking liar that was all pretend