Life ft. CADEN! Lyrics

I wish I knew what you want from me, girl

Because maybe I could treat you better

I wish you knew what you mean to me, for real

Lately life's just been getting stressful

I heard my mom, she sent a text

She said, I hope you make it home

I told her, I hope I don't, it's really contradicting

Because that place they call it home

Never felt to me like home

Everywhere they'd fucking go, the love was always missing

My mama tried to hold us down, but she had no support

My brother tried to keep his cool, but he was only four

And I was only two, I couldn't even speak

But everything I saw back then just lingers in my dreams

Can't get away from it, I can't seem to shake it off

I see a pill, I'm popping one, I get to taking off

I'm taking two, I'm taking three, I'm taking four

Just to cope with that pain my brother felt when he was four

He tried to be there for me, but there was no one for him

And that's that shit I ain't know, but I wish I knew back then

That he was my best friend, my only friend, fuck

I gotta chill, I ain't tryna get all sentimental

I'm talking too much about my life, gotta stay confidential

It's just a constant hustle, and it's a constant struggle

To find my peace of mind

I'm only 18, but damn when will I be alright

When I was seven, man, my mom got sick

And the hospital bills still eat up the checks

That's why I'm tryna live a life that ain't full of regrets

Because when we gone, there's no coming back to this shit

When I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone

When I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone

Tell them that I never gave a fuck

Never cared about nobody, all I ever got was bucks

But I'd be lying to you if I told you I ain't want someone to love

Cause All I want is someone to love

(And someone to trust)

All I want is someone to trust

(And someone to touch)

Mr. Noticeable it's uncontrollable

Swear yesterday I was kicking and eating popsicles

And hitting ramps with my bicycle

It's been a minute since I've traveled down my time cycle

Past girls, burn bridges, life's a tussle and a hassle

Looked at my world and knew I had to leave and travel

Lack of patience, have a nigga lose a battle

Sense of urgency, my rhymes will tell the tattle

My mind begins to rattle

I ponder and dibble dabble, think the world is filled with cattle

They shooing at the boats, though I keep a steady paddle

It's all up in my head, seems I'm running from some shadows

Seems the world is falling down, just an imaginary battle

I'm slamming down the gavel on some shit I can't fathom

Unnecessary commentary can't help it, I just babble

I'm talking about the present day and I'm lacing up my saddle

I'm fighting off the evil that's gonna linger in the shadows