I'm Not Full of You, I'm a Burden to Myself Lyrics

No more crutches, no more strongholds

I need to fight this but I can't do it alone

I need Your help to guide me through this

Victim mentality never got me anywhere

Carry my cross then add my own weights to it

Nullify Your sacrifice with my self-righteousness

There's a lion outside, I'll be killed in those streets

But then refuse to remove my hand from the plow

To reach for Yours

Don't leave right now, I still need You

I can't run if I'm still stumbling

Life and death, well, they still scare me

But in You I have hope, so I will tarry

Your voice repeats the words I need to hear

But yet I question, Father are You coming in clear

I've seen some of Your signs, and tried reading between the lines

But I can only see dimly with this helmet on me

I tried to weigh this problem on my own

There's no question, You outweigh it

The grand departure left me excited

Now I'm trying to find my way back home

To a place I've outgrown

Don't leave right now, I still need You

I can't run if I'm still stumbling

Life and death, well, they still scare me

But in You I have hope, so I will tarry

This place I've outgrown was never a home

It just had an alluring interior

One day a light shone through the window

Then I realized I need to get out of here

Where I'm coming from isn't where I belong

It's just where I made myself comfortable

Don't leave right now, I still need You

I can't run if I'm still stumbling

Life and death, well, they still scare me

But in You I have hope, so I will tarry

I tried to fight this but I just found out I was reckless

I tried patience but that just made me even more complacent

I tried to ignore this but I cannot seem to avoid it

In order to forget these first I must face them

You'll never leave me, I'll always need You

I will run but first I'll start with walking

Life and death, well, they shouldn't scare me

But in You I have hope, so I will tarry