If I Die Tonight Lyrics

Hey its me again sorry for blowing up your phone but please pick up

Still I love you if I die tonight

Your the rainbow when the sun don't shine

Pink skies beautiful sunsets our sun set

What do you crave our love has dug its grave

And it's hard burning our book when I'm stuck on every page

Let my demons out the cage, burn the hope of us in flames

Breaking free but I'm locked up in these chains and it's driving me insane

Lord can you hear my cry

Lord I'd rather die than fly grab the sword and cut with knives

Twister in my life its my mistakes I contemplate

Will I make it

Will somebody else take me

Or will you take me

I'm losing grip throwing fists at the wall suffering from your withdrawal

Girl you got me tripping, paranoid and seeing visions

Envision tippy toeing through the kitchen, bitching, like something always missing

Like I'm the doctor to your prescriptions

Cuz girl I love you need to love myself

Now days I wake up with somebody else

Cuz girl I love you need to heal myself

Still I wish it was your skin or heart I felt

I'm the one that needs the Meds

Still got monsters in my head

You're my monster in the bed

Good bad some theft quick with the knife in the back

Always on attack when I try to just protect

Always saying I project deflect but loyalty ain't something that you ever had

Now I'm sitting in the booth making songs about my past

Swear to G-d it won't last

One more song and I'll throw it in the bag

Let me get this off my chest

Late nights with complexities and cigarettes

I just keep replaying the words that you said to me

Knew it would get to me

Like a dark comedy your just depressing me

Missing the image of smiles and knowing our destiny

Fake it like I can deal with the pain when it gets to me

Drinking seems to be my only remedy

Haven't seen my loved one in some months I'm feeling misdirected

Feeling disconnected

I wanna hear your voice and

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Cuz girl I love you need to love myself

Now days I wake up with somebody else

Cuz girl I love you need to heal myself

Still I wish it was your skin or heart I felt

Look I've been calling you every single day so go fuck yourself