Bhammered Lyrics

I thought I'd be happy

I thought I'd find purpose

I thought I'd find something that I thought I was missing

You're staying in college

Borderline alcoholic

Asleep in your bedroom

It's the only place you feel safe

I said I'm sorry

I've been beating myself up so much that it's making me angry

It's freezing outside

It's so cold outside that I'm crying

When I've got nothing to be sad about except I miss my friends

I miss my dog

I just miss feeling like nothing is wrong

And I keep on having these dreams where I don't know where I am

But it's okay

Because it feels like a familiar place

Maybe it's timing but most of the time I haven't been feeling like myself

And I'm so indifferent about my own health

About my own happiness

I've been up drinking

I've had nothing to do for the past several days because it's freezing

And I've been thinking of you

I won't apologize

I'll overanalyze

So you can criticize all these words I've been thinking

Fuck

I've been up drinking

I said I'm sorry

But I've been staying up late going over every little thing

I thought I was done believing that you were the best thing that I've ever fucking had