breaking up is really hard to do Lyrics

Breaking up is really hard to do

I had my first one, maybe at 22

I think my body count is up to 14

And half of them came from the summer that had ensued

Me and my ex had been on different wavelengths

And maybe I wasn't fair to her, I ain't no saint

Thinking of other women when we would kick it

Had to put my phone down as to not bring attention

No straight up infidelity but had my foot out the door, and I would look at some hoes

And I might text 'em sometimes, and I might send some emojis

She was deeply in love with me and I could not reciprocate

I had to break it off, my shoulders feeling that lifted weight

Shortly after discovered my love for myself had dissipated

Trying to make sense of myself when my body on different fragrances

I started fuckin' round, and I'm filling holes now

And I'm ten toes up and I'm ten toes down

Breaking up is really hard to do

I had my 2nd one at 27, you

Would probably realize that I'm 27 now

That shows the urgency within everything I write down

See this one hit a little bit different cause I ain't never felt no true love

Butterflies in your stomach, can't remember who you was

Trying new breakfast spots every week, grading all the potatoes

Setting aside a budget for flowers cause she gon' need those

Peace in my soul, niche inside jokes

The very presence of someone special could feel like home

And when you ain't saying nothing conversation still flows

It's an Energetic language, and what I'm saying she knows

Every day's a brand new uncharted territory

Every day I count blessings, I'm very fortuned

Try to stay present cause the present is ever fleeting

Ironically I thought that time was never leaving

But things switch up, getting distant, at the blink of

An eye and I was doing everything I could think of

It's crazy how life changes getting your pages mixed up

She had a death in the family, started changing perspective

On me, on life, on her path, on her purpose

And whatever I say make her feel like it's diverging

Sometimes people gotta discover some things for themselves

It hurt me partially cause honestly I knew I could help

Maybe paths are meant to be followed

Maybe ours will intersect and reconnect for tomorrow

If they don't maybe that's fine but that's a tough pill to swallow

I Had to take that medication daily, I followed

Directions on bottles in a directionless chapter

Of life as the ice in my veins get stacked up

I'd like to say I'm onto greener pastures

But that type of optimism is a challenge