How Could I Be Loved If It's So Easy To Hate Me? ft. Becca Packer Lyrics

Yeah the beat stops in my heart, the fermata holds

A wave of tension rushes, and the feeling is so cold

But I can't resist myself, I always seem to want more

Trying to be careless, but if I care less, then you won't know

These thoughts invade me, yeah they pervade me and my every move

Trying to evade the bad decisions, yeah I try to keep my cool

I'm scared to lose you, even before I had you in my arms

In the end I'm screaming at the fool that dreamed of any start

These feelings in a cage, shaking at that cell so violent

Trying to get off the island, but trapped by their own fears

To be alone is so dark, they long for liberty

But the nightmare, of breathing air, suffocates them out of luxury

The stars they shine so bright even though so far away

If I could be there, shining in the dark sky, part of the array

In the back my light always seems to fade into gray

So nobody notices the pain I feel and how I ache

The water's cold

I'm scared to go

Yeah I'll drown, if I stay for a while

And if I fall

I can't stand up tall

For no one will take my hand and say they love me so

If they did, would I wanna know?

Trying to tame that old lion, that's been taunting me for years

I'm surprised I didn't cry, didn't even shed one tear

Cause when I try and be the man, I try to be so bold

I end up becoming the statue and dry the entire mold

So scared to repair, easier to let it burn

Except when the fire comes too close, that's when you feel it hurt

It becomes unbearable, almost hysterical, you try and wave your shirt

But the wind you blow only makes the embers the flame ignite and surge

And why is it my fault? Why do I have to be like this?!

Why is it me that's the fucked up dark masochist?

What did I do to the world that makes me so hated?

Why did I have to be the one that is so complicated?

No one understands me, the maze inside my brain

Quite unsolvable by anyone, impossible to ascertain

So to spare the pain, they better disdain me

How could I be so loved if it's so easy to hate me?

The water's cold

I'm scared to go

Yeah I'll drown, if I stay for a while

And if I fall

I can't stand up tall

For no one will take my hand and say they love me so

If they did, would I wanna know?