The Nut Lyrics

I make every decision in my life

I make the wrong decisions all the time

No matter what the world is looking like

We fuck up and get up again

And that's the part that terrifies me

I've been in places where I couldn't see

The light at the end might get switched off again

And there's nowhere to go when the dark finds me

And maybe that's okay

An acceptance in a way

The illusion of control

Doesn't serve us anymore

If there's nowhere we can run

Then there's nowhere else to be

So I'll sit right here with you

Try to find the space to

Breathe

I know what I'd change about myself

If you want me to, I need your help

I find I'm always trying way too hard

For things I that don't even think I want

Tap my shoulder and say

I should like this one day

And it's all that I will ever think about

Now I realize that you didn't know me

You were drunk and you just wanted to see

If it would make you feel good

To give advice that you should

Have taken back when you were sixteen

But I'll make the same mistakes

All I wanted was a break

From the simple and mundane

When we have it feel the same

Now I want that simple life

I'll deny myself the right

To an earth ship in the hills

I'm afraid of sitting

Still

I know what I'd change about myself

If you want me to I need your help

It's bold to assume you'd change me

If you cared enough you'd sooner leave

My vision's clouded with your compromise

You made a promise, look me in the eyes

And tell me what was more important

I know you have to pay your mortgage

When will I stop entertaining

This idea that I'm not changing

Days go by and I accomplish more than I blink an eye at

I don't know who I am without this

The suffocation of industriousness

But at least I know that I use you to distract myself with

And I'll never be fixed