what do i do with this freedom? Lyrics

I went down from Kansas City to la

And forgot what it was I was there to say

Ain't no better time to be afraid

Ain't no better time than today

Ain't no better time to be afraid

And if all the words were written on the wall

Who would I be not to be involved

And I could blame it on the alcohol

But you and I would know that I'm a fraud

So stop fuckin making all these wild accusations

Please stop holding me to these high of expectations

I was high on the job but I thought it was vacation

I tried it's my fault and I'm trying to be patient

I was out late at night what do I do with this freedom

I was out all the time thought I built a little kingdom but it tumbled to the ground

And it made an awful sound

Told the truth and wasn't proud

To be missing to be found

Filled with righteous anger you

You call me up and tell me that my energy's contagious

And I'd better watch my tongue and that I've been a bit courageous

I understood your message but I never got to say this

And I don't think you understand me I don't blame you I don't either

There's a lot of moving parts and in my heart I can see her crying

Crying

Wash my hands and move on I don't know what else to do

I tried to make amends and I stumbled in pursuit

Tried to blow the roof off and they all just needed Novocain

Made it fuckin worse I'm a walkin fuckin hurricane

So stop fuckin making all these wild accusations

Please stop holding me to these high of expectations

I was high on the job but I thought it was vacation

I tried it's my fault and I'm trying to be patient

I was out late at night what do I do with this freedom

I was out all the time thought I built a little kingdom but it tumbled to the ground

And it made an awful sound

Told the truth and wasn't proud

To be missing to be found