masquerade Lyrics

Well here I am again

Pacing my room

Haven't felt like this in months

I've been waiting for you

To show up unannounced

And tear down the houses I've built

Why do I even try

To push you aside

I've never been successful

And you're the reason why

My heart is pounding

I'm restless

You left me defenseless

It's comforting some things dont change

I'm trying my best

But that isn't good enough

He tells me to rest

But I just try keeping up

This image of me

I can't even see in the mirror

My masquerade just became clearer

Well here I am again

Just trying to sleep

But I know that when I wake up

I'll still be me

Disappointment every morning

When I see the same tired eyes

I'm trying my best

But that isn't good enough

He tells me to rest

But I just try keeping up

This image of me

I can't even see in the mirror

My masquerade just became

Clearer

Im fighting myself

I can't seem to win

All the shots to my pride

The spiraling inside my mind

Still I come back to you

all these years of vertigo

You'd think I'd want to let you go, I

I want things to change

I'm trying my best

To let them see what's underneath

If I'm being honest

It's taking every part of me

To show them what's real

If I hide any longer I'm gonna drown

I'm pulling my masquerade down