Panic Lyrics

I've tried my hardest but i'm still Where i started

Even after all the bounds and leaps

Always feel behind no matter how High i climb

The bars always out of reach

Shattered hearts corrupt minds and Cause bodies to grow roots and rot

Scattered darts erupt cries from my Mother to stop

They sound like screams from Dreams of self asphyxiation

Don't make me go to sleep and have To replay them

My waking life is even worse, i feel Like i'm cursed

So I'll lay collecting dust till the day I'm in a hearse

Take all the abuse about my wasted Potential

I'm okay with being average but they Want me to be special

So I scraped clawed crawled my way Up to the surface

Now I wander through the valleys Looking for a better purpose

And I'm scaling Mountains with no Sight of the top

No hope so cold but I know I can't Stop

At least I have a mindset that put me Up on my feet

Every rep every set done with perfect Technique

Bought a truck from my job that i Work six days a week

And i feel like i caught up and Haven't hit my peak

I'm still the same? Nothings changed?

Im spoken to like a stray dog thats Wrapped in chains

Even after all these battles with this Mental state?

This was all a waste? I'm still the Same?

I've tried my hardest but i'm still Where i started

Even after all the bounds and leaps

I Always feel behind no matter how High i climb

The bars always out of reach

Am i enough?

Have I done what I needed to as a Son?

Can I put down this gun?

Am i enough?

If push comes to shove

Am I worthy of your love?

Pressures are rising and I'm getting Sick of fighting

I wanna shut down again wanna let Down my friends

I feel the walls closing in being Crushed by all my sins

Saw abyss and then i flinched my Lifespan is now wearing thin

Senses overloaded i just cant control It

My nose is stuffed and done with my Ears have fucking exploded

Every touch feels like attacks Incoming

My heart is beating pumping my Lungs have dried and shrunken

Now i'm squinting i lost my vision its Getting blurry

Knees have caved in forces of nature Raining down flurries

My limbs are shaking my head is Aching everyone's worried

I'm going numb I think I'm done Chest weighing tons

Hysteria sets in i taste the salt from My tears

Cant bring my breathes in i'm Flooded with all my fears

Drowning abandonment large Heights lost my will to live

I feel so inadequate i have nothing Else to give

Pleading with my body just Shutdown already

I can't take this anymore stop please

I'm out of energy, i feel unsteady

I've given every ounce to find peace