The Raindrop Diaries (Extended) Lyrics

I'll never regret any decision that I've made

All the broken hearts and the girls that I've played cuz

All they did was make me into who I am today and honestly

I wouldn't have it any other way

I was steady throwin' shade in the Red Light

Kept my heart open to a possible bed wife

Someone to talk to

Maybe share my life but

Karma's a bitch and She's been watching me closely

Never knew if they chose me for my height or for my smile

Gave a little piece of myself to make em smile

At the price of my smile hid it all for a while

That river and that tree have a place on my tile

Take a look at me now, mom, look at me now

Your little boy's all grown

I've had some bad days but I made it on my own

Kept a grin on my face, hard times never showin'

The dark side of me

Anything I would deem detrimental

Never left a stain on my mental

Ima let you see the window to my soul, light a candle

Careful cuz my heart is full of staples, never handle it

Camera lit

Heaven sent apothecary tellin it, pessimist

Weight so cold like the Antarctic

But give me pen and a pad and ima bless it

Took the prom queen to the back just to undress her

Let me take a quick sip, cuz lately

All that's on my mind is my baby, and maybe

She's not even my baby

I just think it's kind of crazy cuz this beat

Is lettin you see another side of me like

Something I would write in a diary

Like when she told me, Jay there's a new life in me, a side of me

Wanted it gone, I had a life to lead

Sorry if I sound cold-hearted, it was frightening

Barely 16 I wasn't ready for that life but I cried when she told me she lost it

The things on my mind are flowin out and in time I'll come to find

That maybe that baby was when I lost it

For real