So Many Nights Lyrics

So many nights I stayed up trying

So many nights I'd sit there wondering why

So many nights I stayed up trying

So many nights I'd sit there wondering why

So many nights I stayed up trying

So many nights I'd sit there wondering why

Baby do you hate me?

For I'm a liar

Baby do you hate me?

For I'm a liar

So many nights

So many nights

So many nights I stayed up trying

So many nights I stayed up writing

So many nights I stayed up fighting

I'm trying my best I need rest

I don't wanna be this way

I need relief from the stress inside my chest

I'm feeling depressed I know mamma you ain't impressed

I don't wanna be this way I ain't okay

Lately feeling like my life's a test

Manifest about a life that's great

Ever since I was eight I knew I'd make away

This is my fate Ima be straight Ima make away no need to wait

Today is my day there's no debate

I got a lot of hate we all relate

We feel like nothing's okay

Nothing's going our way so just we say

So many nights I stayed up trying

So many nights I'd sit there wondering why

So many nights I stayed up trying

So many nights I'd sit there wondering why

I know you don't wanna fight so you put a knife to tight wrist you wanna make a slit

Don't do it don't quit you got so much to live for

I know you're living in fear you feel like no one's there

You try to make it clear It cuts deeper every year

And I know it's so unclear so just please don't give up

So many nights I stayed up trying

So many nights I'd sit there wondering why

You sit in your room several hours at a time

Tears running down your eyes

You wanna say your goodbyes But you feel it ain't wise

You don't wanna lie don't wanna cry you just wanna die

You can't make it right

You feel like you've tried

You don't wanna fight

You just wanna make it right

But every single night it's the same thing

Going back to the past you don't wanna let it last

120 on the dash going fast let it crash let me pass

I don't wanna be here

I don't wanna stay here

Please don't leave here

I know it's hard you don't wanna stay here

I promise it gets clear

You appear as happy when you're feeling crappy

I know it's hard you will make it by

You will be bright

You'll be alright

I promise it gets better

So many nights I stayed up trying

So many nights I'd sit there wondering why