surrender. ft. wishlane & Clovehitch Lyrics

I built an effigy from willow trees that grew in my backyard

And then I trimmed and polished endlessly, endowed it with my heart

And then the wandering mind lost subtlety

Alarm bells breathe soliloquys

And all of it was done to me at once

And on the day that I learned what you were was not what I had built

I saw the flame that had destroyed the earth, reflected in my guilt

Because the statue, hollow and serene

Gave more to me than anything

And all of it would only happen once

So I'll addict myself to throwing up and television screens

And we'll convince ourselves that growing up

Will justify the means

The shade you pick, encephalic

Grayed out the worst I can remember

All is well but something was surrendered

And I could wear the whole thing down

But are you sure you don't find pieces you resemble

From the features that you outlined in chalk?

And I could tear the core right out

But I don't know what's withering beneath the surface

Shave the sinew, grieve the purpose

And rot