Deployment Lyrics

Uh been feeling lost I'm tryna keep my composure

Surrounded by too many soldiers and I don't even know em

It's cold as fuck here in Poland and it's not even snowing

Leaving ain't a possibility, my mental exploding

Woah yuh, feel like I'm trapped in a box

Can't play the game or make no music

Got my mind in a knot

Plus it ain't no days off, I only rest when I sleep

And even then I'm tossing and turning

Cuz I don't have dreams

Feel like a prison sentence

I'm counting days but I don't feel a difference

Hell I don't know when I'm leaving and that's a shitty feeling

I got this pit in my stomach because this shit is sickening

I'm really finished, I'm finna lose my fucking mind

Woah, I'm breathing in and then out

I'm tryna keep it all together even though I could shout

Suffer in silence don't let em see you tremble with doubt

Man is this what being a soldier really about?

Lost inside my mind I'm feeling hopeless

Been thinking bout the grave I'm losing focus

Mind been tryna slip away but they don't notice

Feel like my vibration at it lowest

Yeah, I ain't never felt worse

I ain't scared to die but ion wanna do it in service

Of country with a system where I'm not meant to flourish

Hope they play this in the Oval Office so I can serve em

Look, I know it sound like I'm bitching

I'm just afraid of wasting time I got my mind on a mission

Wanna share my talent with the world

Goated Descendant, I'm only just wishing

This war would end so I can go finish

Can't keep me down

And they can't keep me quiet

Imma speak my mind until I die, I'll never be silent

And they love to say I'm ignorant, so I can't get violent

Cuz proving they point is a method I ain't willing to try

Another day another worthless dollar

And I better be getting extra pay or imma holler

Hell I'm a state away from gunfire, explosions, and tanks

But you can't break me off some extra change to put in my bank?

Like what the fuck it's gone take? Huh? Me getting shot in the face?

At night cut off the lights and all you hear is the planes

Helicopters zooming overhead doing they job

But I'm always hella cautious they ain't dropping a bomb

It's paranoia, but that's the way that it works

How I know that won't invade?

They said the same about Ukraine

I roll the dice and set the stage, like I'm directing a play

But then they act like they ashamed when they feeling the same

Damn yeah, my mind is really a weapon

Everybody got a story but they don't wanna tell it

And the ones who do be lying tryna get em some leverage

I'll split em like severage

I'm showing up to teach em a lesson

Lost inside my mind I'm feeling hopeless

Been thinking bout the grave I'm losing focus

Mind been tryna slip away but they don't notice

Feel like my vibration at it lowest

In my mind I know I'm golden

The loudest in the room be the brokest

Staying ten toes I'm never folding

If Imma die I'm going out heroic

Deployment