Petals Lyrics

I've died so many times

Yes, I'm twenty-eight

And everything should be just lovely

But sometimes, it's the lovely

That tears us apart

You think you want to be me

But you don't

I was on t.v.

And I look beautiful

In the photos you might see

But behind closed doors

When no one's watching

I look at myself

And try to tear me apart

I succeed

I break myself

Again, and again

Until I'm far from that girl you've seen

The one floating by on a skateboard

Riding her bike with no hands

Mysterious, and hard to catch

But there's so much I'm hiding

Because when I catch myself

My hands sink in

Like claws to my own skin

Odd, that I could never stand

Shots or doctor's offices

Yet I break into my own body

Like a scientist would

'I wonder if I take this beauty all away

What lies under there'

Blood drips down my face

I look in shock at my own little cells

All in formation, so exposed

I ate an artichoke yesterday

Once I tore off all the petals

The cells that lay exposed looked like mine

I stared at them disgusted and in awe

The same way I look at myself

After the damage is done

And all my petals are gone

How long does it take

To regrow petals

How can I get them all back again

I wish I hadn't just done that

I wish I didn't just do it again

How does a fallen raindrop fly back towards the sky

You might think it doesn't, but it does

You just can't see it

How do fallen petals get back to their flower

They don't

But they will grow again