the secrets i keep Lyrics

Have I pushed a button

Red or blue

I feel it's all my fault

What did I do

I should keep quiet

Tucked far away

They were right all along

What more can I say

I will stand in the corner

I won't say a word

I will hide all my flaws

I will cover the dirt

Hide my head in the sand

I will muffle the sound

Not a single soul will know what I found

Hide away all the scars

Wipe the tears from my face

Those who know what I saw

Will call me a disgrace

Embellish the trauma

Then bury it deep

It all was a nightmare

The secrets I keep

No one will notice me

Alone in my room

Locked up with my thoughts

They won't assume

That I'm searching for sentences I cannot say

I am looking for life in a desperate way

With my heart in my hands and my tears on the ground

Not a single soul will know what I found

Push my feelings around

Tidy up all the pain

Hide away all my flaws

Then drink too much champagne

Embellish the trauma

Then bury it deep

It all was a nightmare

The secrets I keep

At night come the monsters and I can't wake up

They will eat me alive until I have saved up

All the courage to scream but they don't hear a thing

Drawing scars on my body with my own bedsprings

Why use knives when I'm cut every time by the words

I spit out of my mouth throwing up and it hurts

That I can't tell the world what I've come to see

No one can know the secrets I keep

I keep

Oh keep them inside of me

You can't see that side of me

Keep them inside of me

You can't see that side of me