Trying Lyrics

I never liked to dance

In front of anybody

Without substantial substance

I never trust my body

I never fucked with chance

It's my greatest folly

Without substantial substance

I never trust anybody

But this last year's demolished my fears

Tearing down walls I've built up for years

It all feels more open now

More exposed, more sincere

Why do you think I'm lying

When I tell you I'm trying

I'm better than I've been

I'm even taking my meds again

Why do you think I'm lying

When I tell you I'm trying

I'm better than I've been

I'm drinking wine instead of gin

Why do you think I'm lying

when I tell you I'm trying

I'm better than I've been

I won't let my anxiety win

I never liked to dance

But I've never taken molly

I've never liked to wear

Clothes that disclose my body

I've never fucked with chance

Always inverted at parties

without substantial substance

Now I want to dive into a pool of bodies

But it's like you want back me where I was

In your arms, scared of losing your love

It all feels so broken now

So controlled, so insincere

Why do you think I'm lying

When I tell you I'm trying

I'm better than I've been

I'm even taking my meds again

Why do you think I'm lying

When I tell you I'm trying

I'm better than I've been

I won't spiral about the end