Lessons Lyrics

I had to learn to learn the hard way that ignoring my thoughts

Is not the same thing as just getting over them

It's all my weight

Guess imma shoulder it

Cause these nights turn late

Thinking what I should've did

And no I'm not a stranger to all the heartbreak

So much pain I could just prolly pile it up on a shelf

Hurt people hurt people

But they also hurt them selves

Lord knows I did damage

Though she also knows i healed

I been fighting this anger

everyday I don't matter if it's slight

seems colors the only way I can feel

Might not see it on my face

But just know that its a shell

Either way I'm feeling cold

To the core, Like I'm steel

The real difference between taking you path and going my way is the haste and grit

I can't keep through these days

Feeling spent

Just waiting for change

Doesn't really make cents

Cause what is plan

If you don't chase it yea

I can't keep being down bad

Feeling like an old soundtrack

They say it take patience

But I'm tired of waiting yea

Said Im here for a reason

But im speeding thru these seasons

So now i'm like oh shit

Cause Im feeling like an observer

And I'm always Looking from the outside In

But why am I always on the outside

And I don't know nothing bout a pastime no

I'm just tryna heal from my past live

But they see me moving like an anti-hero

And I'm waiting

So can you understand

Do you understand

What I'm saying

Cause I need more time

Under me is like a landslide

And I'm feeling like apartheid

Cause my mind is separate

From my body

And there's no body

That can help me

And now I'm like oh shit

Cause what do I do now

I feel used like a hand towel

I don't wanna see the end

And what can I say when everything that I do and the words that I speak

Sound like I'm coming from Spain

I don't know where I'll be

Not overthinking what to say

Cause there's another voice saying stop Inside my brain

I've been telling myself, we the best, keep the pace

Don't wreck, In due time you'll have it in your hand

If it was made for me

In my way, nothing stands

My intention

Is to have it on command

But I spent too long,

Waiting for a sign that says

It's your time now

Fuck around, and Find out

But my thoughts were too loud

And now I know they ain't shit

But I'm used to company

Someone to comfort me

But that was old shit

And Im feeling like an observer

Cause I'm Looking from the outside in

But why am I always on the outside

And I don't know nothing bout a pastime no

I'm just tryna heal from my past live

But They see me moving like an anti-hero

And I'm waiting

Can you understand

Do you understand

What I'm saying

Cause I need more time

Above me is a damn lie

And I'm looking through my good eye

Cause my mind is seperate

From everybody

And that's prolly

Why I feel sorry

For the things I never said

Cause were do we go to

If our trust has issues

If it only was that simple