Reflections Lyrics

I was always doing the most

But got nothing for it

Always noticed a hole

It's about time I explored it

All of this pain, can't ignore it

All of this change, can't afford it

I got 10 toes on the pavement

But my mind is in orbit

"Don't Hit Me Right Now"

That's what I always said

That was the phrase that made the bed

Of which I lay and pray and vent

Pushing everyone away

But honestly, I wished they stayed instead

So uninvested in my own life

That I ain't give a shit what day was next

Every day was the same

College was killing my brain

Working was killing my soul

Lizzie was hiding my pain

I need to get a grip on myself

'Cause I been living ashamed

I used to talk a big game

But I backed it up, when'd that change

I was in Missouri, told my momma not to worry

'Bout me, little did I know we both got demons creeping, stirring

I was all alone, y'all didn't see me fuckin' hurting

Yet I'm back at home, it still feel the same, it irks me

I do everything myself now

I feel like it's all on me

I'm never asking for help, nah

But maybe that is all I need

I put my heart into everything

All I need back is some love

Though I don't feel like it all the time

I know that I am enough

I said this a self-improvement summer

But I realized if it's all for you

Then did I at all improve

You said "move on" and I have tried my hardest to

I got good at not calling you, but that don't stop the thoughts of you

Looking for validation from other people

A toxic trait, it's fucking lethal

But sadly it's what we all want

To pull you up from underneath you

I was depressed for awhile

Blessed that the light has finally peeked through

Sure, I'm making these songs for y'all

But I'm the one I need to speak to

Work on you and acknowledge the progress

Cuz this shit's a process, I swear that you got this

Just try and do not stress, when you're down, you got friends

And family to pop in to tell you "don't stop yet"

Thanking every person that has ever helped me cope

None of us say it enough, we in the same boat

Thankful to myself, cuz that's who has put in the most

Need to focus on myself, change up the approach

I do everything myself now

I feel like it's all on me

I'm never asking for help, nah

But maybe that is all I need

I put my heart into everything

All I need back is some love

Though I don't feel like it all the time

I know that I am enough

I put my heart into everything

All I need back is some love

I put my heart into everything

I know that I am enough