this is how i leave Lyrics

I know you're out there, in the city somewhere

You're probably just walking around, unaware I'm still thinking about you

And you're not like how I thought you would be

When I was younger I thought I could see who you were going to be

But I don't need to see

How my life could have been

I don't need the alternate reality

Because this is how I leave

Tomorrow I'll go out walking, feel the sun on my head

It's useless light and warmth

I want it to rain all the time instead

And I'm not like how I wanted to be

In my head, I thought I could take all the turning seas

But I don't need to see

How my life could have been

I don't need the alternate reality

Because this is how I leave

No I don't need to see

The difference in endings, the what could have been

All the real and unreal, all the space in-between

No no no no no no

Because this is how I leave

This is how I leave