Sleepin With My Demons Lyrics

I've been sleeping with my demons lately

It's been hard, I've been tryna face it

I've been crying every night

I'm just tryna live my life

But some things just seem complacent

If these walls could talk

I swear I'd lose it all

I don't know if imma make it

Been on this journey too long

And I'm tired of being strong

My mental's really breaking, look

April lost my God Dad

His death got me down bad

I see his face frequent, it's usually when I'm sleepin'

I'm tired of my eyes leakin'

I've been breakin' into pieces

Tryna find where the peace is

Where's a shoulder when I need it?

Huh, where's y'all shoulder when I need it?

I've been tryna rid this trauma

On my mama, I ain't average

I always push love away cause I carry too much baggage

Hide the truth in my passion

Too many disappeared, I guess yall good at magic

This is not what I imagined

Naw, this wasn't in the pamphlet

All those lessons that I've stomached, know those blessings comin'

And, the second I'm done runnin', know that check is comin'

A lost soul, I'm tryna find my way

In these songs is where I hide my pain

I keep my head high like my nose bleedin'

I don't trust a soul, I have my own reasons

I've been stabbed in the back, left my soul bleedin'

Keep that fake ass love, I swear I don't need it

Deep breaths, I've been focused on what's next, I've been stressed

Tryna get this weight off my chest, let me vent

Look I ain't been right since

I've been holding on to trauma that I'm scared to express

I've been living with regrets

I swear my life has been a mess, but I'm blessed

Pockets full of presidents

And, my mind full of goals that I'm tryna manifest

Outta breath, I've been running from my problems

DND always on, so please don't bother

I'm just tryna find my solace

I need calmness from world cause I gotta rid this trauma

Making moves, I've been saying less

I can't lose like I paid the refs

I'm in my groove, always taking steps

No excuse, I gotta grind til there's nothing left

I've been sleeping with my demons lately

It's been hard, I've been tryna face it

I've been crying every night

I'm just tryna live my life

But some things just seem complacent

If these walls could talk

I swear I'd lose it all

I don't know if imma make it

Been on this journey too long

And I'm tired of being strong

My mental's really breaking, look

I've been sleeping with my demons lately

It's been hard, I've been tryna face it

These are the Entries In My Diary

Imma let yall all inside of me