emulate a feeling Lyrics

Hid a knife inside a box that lay beneath my bed

Walk and talk all fearless but I'm petrified of death

I'm even more a disappointment if I wuss out of the act

I tried to emulate a feeling but my skin still stayed intact

Hi and goodbye

To this new you that I just met

Is this as good as it gets

Between you and me

And why

Must you leave so soon when you could stay with me

'Cause I'm not ready to see

The world, please

Wait up, wait up, for me (Please)

Wake up, wake up, with me (Please)

We do it all together, you and me forever

'Cause I'm not up to measure, I just can't take the pressure

Try not to let them get to me

Staying calm, unstable mentally

I made an album to keep myself from reeling

I made an album to emulate a feeling

They're in denial, should I just spell it out (Not yet)

I write in code as a way of yelling out

I wrote a song to keep myself from screaming

I wrote a song to emulate a feeling

My oh my

I guess I thought that you'd play nice

I guess I should've guessed twice

'Cause I guessed wrong

Now I

Must now find

My tally-man who's keeping track

Of when I get to unpack

My trauma in a song

Staring in the mirror, making eye contact

Don't forget my name, gotta pull you back

Can't count to four, must I be a sleuth

Mangos can fly and I swear it's true

You're running on, walk in walk out

Unfair, when the sun shines

I guess it's okay, okay, okay, okay, okay

(Do I need to repeat myself again because)

Try not to let them get to me

Staying calm, unstable mentally

I made an album to keep myself from reeling

I made an album to emulate a feeling

They're in denial, should I just spell it out (No)

I write in code as a way of yelling out

I wrote a song to keep myself from screaming

I wrote a song to emulate a feeling

At one, I was happy, I was normal, I was fine

Then at two, I was told I'm special and my parents cried

Yeah, I know the next three years happened, but they don't come to mind

Try and forget what could've been, forget the part of me that died (Yippee)

I'm not surprised with my track record that I don't have a therapist

I guess I'm too stuck worrying if I look cute while wearing this

I haven't cut my hair and tell myself it's an experiment

I say I'm not depressed because my mental state's not perilous

Wake up at eleven some days

Barely back alive on Monday

Twitter tells me 'bout my country

Move on drown my fears with funnies

Hahaha, self-deprecation just to cope

If they ever give you funny looks just tell them it's a joke

If they really knew me well then they'd be worried when I spoke

Because beneath all of the lies, I'm barely breathing I might choke

Memories from my camera roll

A time when I felt good

Felt understood

And life's been creeping up to take its toll

To keep my end of the deal

And now it hurts to feel