Deserter Lyrics

I pack my bag and I walk out the door

I've done it a lot but it's different than before

I popped a pill so I'm staying awake

To enjoy every moment of seeing your face

I've been a convict for too long

I don't know why she does me so wrong

I'm a deserter

The going got tough so I got the fuck out

I don't wanna hurt her, but she must've known she was pushing me out

I'm a deserter

Yeah, I don't wanna hurt her

I'm a deserter

I don't wanna hurt her

I'm a deserter

I don't wanna hurt her

Looking down the sidewalk

Thinking every pole on the street is you

It's funny how the strangest things can look like the things you're looking for

Out of hope

But maybe if I had less

I'd see it wasn't you

Maybe I should give up

Shouting your name around Montclair

Maybe I should realize

That I might not find you there

Oh, I might not find you there

The most beautiful thing I ever saw

Was now with me in my arms

I can't believe you could make it

But I don't know if I love or I hate it

I really love that I know you care

But I dread the times when you're not there

Oh, you're not there

But I'm not gonna think that now cuz things are so fucking good

When I'm laying with you in the field

I feel like I'm laying where I should

But soon I'll be taken away

I might not see you again and I have a headache

Cuz I just keep thinking how I like you more than a friend

Oh, how I like you more than a friend

I'm so infatuated but you know just what my fate is

Moving up too slow and out too fast

I hope this feeling for a while lasts

I wish it was harder to fall in love with you

When I'm all alone

All this love won't have a home

My father tells me to be careful

To not push the knife deeper in

I know you like what we're doing

But I'm hurting you

And that seems like such a sin

I'm so infatuated but I could never admit it (I've been hurt before)

I don't wanna hurt you (I don't wanna hurt you)

But you know I can't fake

So I'll just accept the heartbreak

Accept the heartbreak