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I'm on the search for my purpose

Why I was put on this Earth

I like to get all in my head and

Dig up all the hurt

But I wasn't raised in the streets

I was raised in the church

Was taught the stars were the limit

And the sky was my perch

Ever since I was young was taught to think for myself and

But when I think for myself shit gets a little overwhelmin'

Surrounded by skull walls knee deep

In the shit that I dwell in

My brain brain starts to swell

And the voices start yellin'

I just wish I could pick out words

Translate what they're tellin' me

But they get all jumbled up

Like there's a thought bombshell in me

And it starts to get hazy

Like there's some fucked up spell on me

I feed the madness

Rumpelstiltskin raisin' hell on me

I'm tellin' you

All magic comes with a price

But when you leave it up to chance

It's like rolling a dice

But then again does it really matter what I do with my life?

'Cause once upon a time I heard that

Everyone dies

I don't mean for this to come off like I'm sad and it's sappy

To be honest I don't really know what I'm trynna get at exactly

Get at me

My word play and verbiage is crafty

But when they see what I write down they all start to laugh at me

But that's okay I guess we all need a little laughter

In this dark world, constant fighting, black paint plaster

We all need a little preaching

Hear the words from our pastor

While I hide behind my words and jokes

And pretend that I matter

But I do matter

At least that's what they tell us in science class

I might've misunderstood

I don't know how I passed

I am matter

Specific build, schools speak out they ass

How could some explosion in the sky

Go and do all of that

That's when it starts to confuse me

That's when my thoughts go accuse me

'Cause that means there's gotta be a pretty good damn reason

To choose me

Eatin' dinner with the devil

But you'll have to excuse me

Even though the entertainment was one hell of a doosie

You ever think you'd hear the word doosie in a line?

Prolly not, 'cause your mind's not as fucked up as mine

My diction and lyrics are a good portrayal of my mind

I like to say random things and just make sure that they rhyme

Dingleberry new flavor at Ben and Jerry's

It's kind of scary

Like a mixture of sour kraut and strawberry

I'm weary

Prolly from all the dairy

It's not fair, don't know why like it's fairy

Side effects may vary

But I won't get off so easily

Like I do so frequently

Even though I'm so odd

My head's divided so evenly

One side full of good thoughts

While one side thinks so evilly

Adverb for a sick bird if I do it illegally

Give me a minute man, minute men

Concord and Lexington

Whippin' Benz around bends

If life gives you lemons

Make lemonade it's Minute Maid

It's buggin' me I'm sippin' Raid

Car crash triple A

This ain't no Regular Show

One wrong Skip get some Pops to your dome

Then I'll high five your ghost

You know that I do the most stick with me

Fresh pair of blue J's

Mordecai and Rigby

Like Dr. Seuss but more fast

Cuttin' trees for cash

Fuck the Lorax I stay gettin' paid

I'm Grinch made

I don't care who's in my way

But just know that my heart grew two sizes that day

You talkin' to the champ

Shinin' bright like a lamp

I singlehandedly won a dodgeball game back in church camp

I don't know why I told you that

But I swear I had those kids on the ground

'Cause I put on the clamps

They say that time's the best healer

But it's gettin' worse as I'm older

There's more weight on my shoulders

And the world's gettin' colder

One day I feel great

And the next I'm wishin' it's all over

I guess the Earth's not the only thing that's bipolar