Forrest Gump's Bestfriend ft. Ubsa Lyrics

I got a secret, well I had a secret

(Thought you'd never hear it)

Hidden pain, tormenting my soul

(Playing with my spirit)

Unholy ghost, Looking like its mold

(Said imagine Mary Jane)

Five years old, Behind a closet door

(Not living by his name)

Justice lost, innocence abused

(But I've denied for years)

'Cause he was young, too scared to be wrong

(Just tryna make things clear)

I've always ran, Forrest knock on wood

(Yet they won't brace for me)

Chain on, Say I'm gold bones

(But that shrimping boat won't set me free)

He hushed me down so no one would wonder where I was

Saw that I was quiet then he used me for his buzz

Should've told my aunties but they had a group to manage

Stayed soldiers but now it's me dealing with the damage

Using Clark and Michael as vessels for self worth

I'm not invincible that lie could never help hurt

Holding the imaginary kisses that I hid

And the broken man I am 'cause of what Bubba did

I wish I had somebody

Anybody that could help

I wish I had somebody

Anybody that could help

Years later, in the same room

(Caught by another liar)

This time I snitched, Bessie in the mix

(Had to face the fire)

He got burned, threw silence to the curb

(Patience done expired)

Sympathized, is that what he deserved

(For what he desired)

Conscious cracked, started thinking back

(To the first invasion)

That afternoon, affected how I moved

(On every occasion)

Lack of trust, left my heart with lust

(Still scared to act on any)

Held back, purity in tact

(But somehow couldn't help from feeling filthy)

I ignored the trauma caused by what happened that day

Held my breath hoping distance could take the pain away

Toxins still pumped often from all that they used to say

Extra pain I felt when bullies tried calling me gay

Homophobic tint got darkened 'cause of my religion

Hoped he burn in Hell for what he took without permission

Feeling the imaginary kisses that I hid

And the broken man I am 'cause of what Bubba did

I wish I had somebody

Anybody that could help

I wish I had somebody

Anybody that could help

Still a kid, never quite grew up

(Kept my innocence)

Didn't forgive, but hatred didn't build

(Feelings came and went)

Morals in, never stepping out

(No need to repent)

Came to see, those living in sin

(Are still heaven sent)

Spades game, with my Christian bros

(Score was three to three)

Phone on, gotta text from Stone

(Saying he love me)

Left confused, tried to get some books

(But everything was off)

Dropped my hand, room felt the shift

(Didn't care if I lost)

Ran upstairs, checked with little brO

(He got the message too)

Time to float, hint caught in a tweet

(By then I all but knew)

Dialed him up, Cuzzo let it ring

(Quickly called his mom)

Home Alone, she was outta town

(Felt fear in my palm)

Cry for help, get my baby please

(Before he drops the bomb)

Save Johnny, rocketed to his house

(I tried to keep my calm)

Image flashed, hanging from the fan

(A loss I couldn't bare)

I hit the gas, every light I ran

(Didn't brake 'til I got there)

From the yard, garage was coming up

(Reached him just in time)

Trapped in his car, pulled him outta Hell

(Called the medic's line)

In my arms, he could barely breathe

(Didn't know if he was straight)

Petrified, Until the docs arrived

(And then he hyperventilate)

Start to think, what made him try to throw

(All the cards he was dealt)

Only smiles, joking with the fam

(Didn't notice how he felt)

Suffered daily, just 'cause what he liked

(Couldn't take the hate no more)

The same root, that got Bubba to kiss

(Me in that closet door)

That's what happens when you keep emotions off the grid

Hope this star can start to shine since this is out the lid

Showing the imaginary kisses that I hid

And the better man I am 'cause of what Bertha did

Grandmas taught me only God can have the right to judge

But anybody born different always causing a fuss

Only wanna drag 'em down so you can feel above

Quick to show 'em hatred when all they needed was love

So I've decided to stop these cycles straight from the nerve

No more lines to draw between appearance and the urge

Even though I can't get back all the pain I was in

Best make sure this don't happen to anyone again

So when Jon-Jon get around to his wedding, I'll be the first to show

Stone been winning bouts with depression, since he was nine years old

Can't support 'cause it's trendy, a tweet won't make the weeks better

Bertha's spirit is in me, Man I'm stronger than ever

C'mon kill all that lying to cope, You don't need it for pride

Bubba's little shrimp off the boat, Now I got nothing to hide

Father's love is felt through the heart, He don't wanna cure son

In case you didn't hear from the start, You can't corrupt a pure one

I wish I had somebody

Anybody that could help

I wish I had somebody

Anybody that could help