The Reason Freestyle Lyrics

I've been misunderstood for a while

It wasn't always easy you know

Yeah

Yeah, yeah yeah

I don't have to share my heart throughout a timeline

There been things since as child that hurt me dead inside

Even though I'm twenty-one I haven't made my goal

This is why sharing my testimony's way to go

There is a reason why I gave my life to the one that's above

To the Spirit of God who came down like a dove to his Son

In Matthew 3:16

Not to gain wings that's what Red Bull is for

Not to fly high like a frisbee

Not to use him like a genie

Ask for what I want and leave him alone in the backstreets

Where should I begin at

Why should I believe the Lord is coming back

Hoping in Isaiah I'll walk in his paths

Where should I begin at

When did I believe the devils on my back

Following my tail with a Maybach

My life changed since the death of Grandma Tina

My dad and Meema

My sister who struggled with diabetes

Ms. Mary, she lived bit longer

Everybody else died young

Most died when I was still young

Zee and I were grown a year before she passed at home

I was diagnosed with Autism at two years old

Up until fifteen I didn't know

When it came to my momma my heart was cold

Thanks to the man in cop clothes

Used to block all my cartoon shows

Used to hide out when he came back home

Called me a crash dummy when I made mistakes

That's how it used to go

When it came to school and home I didn't always feel safe from the judgement

People got on me for walking on my tiptoes with no balance

Made me get out of my element despite I don't like violence

Now I'm lying to my parents

Now I'm acting out in malice

That ain't last long though

Paid for my mistakes

Got me kicked out of high school

Ruined reputations got me sent out to my mom's school

Video got out

I became suicidal

Battling with anxiety

Depression and pornography

The animosity that's taking over my heart

Making it so hard to forgive

Causing me to go to drugs and alcohol for me to heal the pain

On my own

Getting used to feeling so alone

Didn't fit in with the people around

I had darkness on my mind

Felt like the biggest battle to overcome was staying alive

At seventeen I was sent to a mental hospital

And seen things that the doctors did that's very uncivil

Done been to therapy for many times

On and off

Putting all my pride to side

Set time to talk

I don't rep Christ for the heck of it

I was lost in the world I trusted in him to get out of it

I don't have to share my heart throughout a timeline

There been things since as child that hurt me dead inside

Even though I'm twenty-one I haven't made my goal

This is why sharing my testimony's way to go

There is a reason why I gave my life to the one that's above

To the Spirit of God who came down like a dove to his Son

In Matthew 3:16

Not to gain wings that's what Red Bull is for

Not to fly high like a frisbee

Not to use him like a genie

Ask for what I want and leave him alone in the backstreets