Prideful Lyrics

I know your young T, but soon your going to have to face it

Just a kid, but in your mind are these hallucinations

Horrific thoughts, brought on by the past situations

You take it to the head and feel like gon' have to fake it

Watching pain go by, staring at the ceiling hoping they can't hear you cry

Hearing demons talking bout you as they walk on by

Saying your the only reason that your friendships die

And man that eat me alive

Because the truth hurts

Should taken the chance, you could've saved her

Now there's a whole in our hearts, I'm diving head first

Into the waves, holding my breath hurts

Now you can't take it no more

Pressure on shoulder, feeling like your waging a war

Pride came, shell casings started hitting the floor

Taking everything you want and sending it to the Lord

I'm praying that he send it back, before I'm reaching the door

I'm prideful, took a step in a direction for a title

I'm making rivals, learned I wasn't chasing dreams but idol

And all the time I wasted wasn't fiction it was final

Swimming deep in regrets, trying to get back to the surface but I'm caught in the net

Of the past, drag me down, water filling my chest

Spirit leaving, bring it back as I'm drawing my breath

I wake up, is this death

Is this death, yeah

I got a feeling I can't look at you again

Not the same way I did

The past, present, and future they all making me tense

Because the person in the mirror, he ain't looking like a kid

Still watching pain go by

Ain't effect me like it used to

Put my heart on ice

Contemplating who I used to be, can't look in his eyes

I despise living lies, had to get back right, (Had to get back right)

As I'm getting older

Found the only thing I'm really doings, getting colder

Taking chances, every second, yeah, I'm getting bolder

Taking punches, learning how to swing and be a soldier (But I ain't got closure)

Cause I'm prideful

Turning over in this never ending cycle

Only thing that keep me floating, it's survival

Feeding off the music, wait for my arrival

Living life, taking dives, beating trials

Breaking ties, follow signs, a disciple

Take me to a higher place, no longer prideful

Trust in God never know where I might go (Where I might go)