Basil Poisoning Lyrics

I thought I knew what I wanted

But everything that I get I end up pushing away

I spend too much time fearing what I can't control

Cant control

And like the fool I am i never lean

The day the devil won

I lost my will to live

What could it be What's stopping me

Unable to see what's right in front of me

Fighting to find a meaning in this madness

If the fear would disappear will i find my way

I'll probably still kill myself just not for awhile

Here's to every laugh every tear every smile

Don't try to stop me just leave me be

Because the thoughts in my head are not the ones that you see

There we stood equally apathetic

Waiting for the other to say goodbye first

Though I try to unfold it there seems no point to this madness

You pulled me in you made me want to live forever

Now I know what losing forever feels like

There's so many things that I could say

But often I feel like I cant control my brain

Staring at the clock wishing it would stop

I've been too fucked up lately to see what I got

If I cant make it through then I'm better off dead

I've come to dread the place I lay my head

I thought I knew what I wanted but everything that I want I end up pushing away

And like the fool I am I never fucking learn

Fuck